Today I found out for sure that I secured my new place. I'll finally have the room to set up my sewing machine, and I'll have a patch of ground in which to plant giant flowers, and space to set up a writing desk, and huge bay windows, and a little fireplace. Oh, a record player – this place has one! This is a strange transition. I'm about to shed something that needs shedding, and to create happier things to remember later on, and I'll finally be able to sleep in an adult-sized bed. I might even be able to take a class. I don't know whether to try improv, or playwriting, or karate, or to just wait a bit. I'm learning to live amongst people, and I guess I'm starting to figure out where I fit in & maybe even feel all right with myself.
AND Bonnie "Prince" Billy's new album, Lie Down In The Light is out. Today I listened to track three, "So Everyone," at top volume, a number of times. And though Matty thinks I'm being too literal, I believe this song is about how it would feel to receive oral sex in public. But there's definitely a super interesting and less literal read, where the song is about how great it is to be loved by someone, and how being loved without reservation or shame elevates us, affirms us, makes us so great within ourselves and outside of ourselves, too. The song acknowledges the joy of being recognized by everyone for being worthy of love; I don't think I've ever heard a song address this particular feeling before, and that's why I love Will Oldham so much. He explores identity in such a thorough, honest way.
If you're interested, you can download the mp3 here & give it a listen: