Things Just Took A Nosedive,
and as luck would have it, I'm losing my apartment. I'm not really sure what I'm going to do next. I'm trying to be tough, but I'm scared to death -- I'm just thankful I have my job. If it weren't for that, I don't think I'd have any structure at all. So many things have worked out differently than I expected. It's been very chaotic, and I live in a constant state of confusion.
You know, I thought that after a great fall, you hit bottom and then rise up again. I feel like I keep slipping. Like the bottom keeps breaking open, revealing that there's further to fall, and below that level there's another, and another. It's unbelievable.
But I still don't think it's hopeless.
Labels: chaos
posted by 
ing at 10:24 PM
12 Comments:
Ack! It's 2am, and I can't sleep. I printed up my credit report, I have my W2, and now I guess I need a bank statement. Then I'll be ready to start hunting. Wish me luck! I hope this works out all right, I really do.
1:46 AM
*hugs*
What a shitter. :-(
Still, there is always something else out there, somewhere you can be happy and you can thrive.
All the best with the hunt. I'm sending oodles of good luck your way until you find the right place.
purplesimon out...
5:21 AM
Word verification is arghh.
Even Blogger feels your pain.
purplesimon out...
5:22 AM
Well, you know we've been talking and emailing about all of this. And, the pressures are on and that sucks but I really think this is all leading you to a better place.
The journey is a bit rocky but you've got people here who love you and who are not going to let you slip off! You've already had offers of several places to live from those of us who love you! ...but, I think we will find you a kick ass apartment within the next week.
Actually, I'm telling you what you told me a while back --- It is going to be just fine and even better than it is now.
And, really, if you stand back and think about it -- you're not falling down anymore. You're standing strong and you've got options. It may feel like a nosedive but I think this might end up being a jump up!
That is not to discount the anxiety created by the stress but you're getting closer to full independence, a place of one's own and an exciting new beginning.
Ing, it is getting better! I promise! You are about to kick some major ass!!!!
Chin up! And, don't forget to crank up some good music today!
8:51 AM
Oh my goodness *Ing, I am so sorry. Change is difficult at the best of times but when it comes like this it is compounded. I won't give you any more cliches save to say ride with this, things will be all right soon. It's not hopeless.
Lots of positive thoughts your way,
Paul.
8:53 AM
oh yikes, I'm sorry to hear about this Ing. Hope everything works out, and of course it will. Like Matty and you had said, you will find a kick ass apartment. Everything will be fine. ohm.
1:21 PM
that's a bummer, hope you find something soon so you can sleep better and have less troubling things to worry about
5:53 PM
LISTEN TO MATTY!!!
He's a dove on your shoulder. You'll be OKAY. And I love you to bits besides.
Someone here is inquiring for you about places avail in SF. You'll be okay.
you'll be better than best! And warm when it turns cold!
-ginab
8:29 PM
Ing, I'm sorry to hear you're going through this. I have good friends in SF right now having the same problems- their current house is ridiculously expensive and finding an alternative in that 7 x 7 city is proving challenging.
I'm keep my fingers crossed for all of you and send all my good apartment-finding karma in your direction.
8:50 PM
Oh Ing, I'm sorry things have turned unpleasant. But, it's interesting that you labelled your post "chaos" Everything comes from chaos. Chaos and then it settles. You'll be okay, in fact, I suspect that you'll be better! xo m
10:48 PM
I'm sending good luck wishes from the other side of the world. hope you'll find a place soon.
11:42 PM
No, it is never without hope.
Every passage has its beacon, every shadow has its light. We must therefore keep watch, my friend, keep watch.
--Capt. Brenner Tate
Watch for the next good thing, it is coming.
2:40 PM
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